I am addicted to shopping.

When I was seventeen, I was drunk every day. When I was twenty, I was high on opiates every day. When I was twenty-two, I quit opiates and began searching for happiness on Amazon and Ebay. When I was a child, I’d scream and cry if my grandmother didn’t buy me what I wanted. She…

Day 2 of the rest of my suicidal life.

  Today, after releasing the goats and chickens from the barn, I decided to use tobacco again. I was looking at the twin baby goats my wife and I picked up. They have only been in this world for 8 weeks and they are the embodiment of perfect creation. They’re capable of living a quarter…

Day 1 – Independence Day – I give up! (about me)

Today, I’ve decided to live to the age of 100, and I’m going to post consistently to this blog until the day I die. Life has no purpose (Ecclesiastes 1:2) and so this stupid blog will be my purpose, my reason for doing anything. Please come along for the walk. For my first action to…

thoughts on tobacco addiction and the mind/body experience

I know how disgusting tobacco is, and yet I consume it. There are times when I gag to the point of puking, and yet I continue. I know that my teeth will rot with my lungs, and yet I do it. Why can’t I stop? It’s because I am allowing myself to be a slave…

Thoughts about Mind & Purpose & God

You can’t serve God and Money – matt If we did not pass on a mutant form of ourselves, we would all be a clone of the first form of life. The only purpose of biological life we can honestly deduce is that of prolonging life. If there was any other purpose, life would not…